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(no subject) [Nov. 9th, 2008|12:30 am]
Ive been looking for approval for so long. I was so scared that I would let down everyone. I lived for everyone but myself. Thats what drove me to such drasticness. Im still scared that maybe I'll amount to nothing but I want to learn for myself, I dont want to spend my whole life wondering. Im living for the moment. I dont want the approval. I want to make myself happy for once in my fucking life. Ive messed up on some things but Im not sorry, because I love who im becoming. I cant believe that I am so happy to be sad over disobeying her,because it means im doing something right for me. Im alive. Ive found peace with myself,with all my flaws, and even if it means sacrificing us, im living for me,forever☮☮

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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2008|11:27 pm]
This Providence:My Beautiful Rescue

This song is just really amazing. Dont you think so. It just reminds me of a time in my life,that was really great☮☮
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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2008|09:03 pm]

It amazes me what music can do to the soul.
It can remind me of happiness and send me somewhere.
Its an escape. Its just incredible where it takes you.
Beautiful beyond bounds. ☮☮

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(no subject) [Nov. 8th, 2008|08:20 pm]

So lately alot has happened. I decided that Im not going to go to college (its just not for me) and personally I think that you can be successfull without going. I gauged my ears to a size 5/8' and now my left ear is all infected and I might have to take it out, which sucks but under the circumstances I'd rather drop a gauge than an ear. I also get to move out when I turn 17 (after senior year) which I am super stoked about. Oh and I quit smoking (again) for now, but still smoke the herb. Me and my mom have been getting on less and less, which sucks but it doesn't really matter because in a year im gone. I only go to school part time because I take online classes, which is cool but im starting to regret because it means that im home more than ever. Other than all that life has been pretty good. ☮☮


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